Things have settled down for now. Apparently, the police examiner had a "prior commitment" get in the way for the polygraph with Bubba. They called the lawyer to reschedule after the holiday. Though I am happy we can enjoy the holiday; I am pissed that it gets to "hang over" our head a little longer. I wish they would do the test and decide what they were going to do and do it already.
Superdaddy got a call about a job up in the sticks. As he put it, what is the difference being over the road or going local 4 hours from home? We probably will be moving up there within a year. Sure isn't on a mountain in Kentucky as I had wanted, but it is out of the city.
Part of me wants out of the city to never look back, but part of me knows I will miss it. The girls will be the ones to suffer in the short term and benefit in the long run. The ex is gonna blow a gasket when she finds out the plan.
Thanks for the note Amy. It means a lot to me.
Hope everyone has a blessed weekend.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Happy Birthday Miss M!
Today is Miss M and my birthday. Today she turns 7. I won't tell you how old I am turning though. Superdaddy was able to call her this am and tell her happy birthday, PIA did not answer my call. I am sure it erks the hell out her that we share birthday's. Where has the time gone. It doesn't seem that long ago that I was changing your diapers. You are turning out to be a nice young lady. Before much longer, you will be able to ride the go-cart all by yourself.
Happy birthday Miss M!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Ugg
So I just found out the polygraph test for Bubba is going to be Monday. Don't know what time yet just Monday. Mom bought me Chinese food for lunch and I just ate my fortune cookie. Want to know what my fortune was?
HOPE FOR THE BEST, BUT PREPARE FOR THE WORST.
Messed up thing...2 cookies, same fortune on both.
What does that say about Monday? I cannot take much more. I think I am gonna vomit.
HOPE FOR THE BEST, BUT PREPARE FOR THE WORST.
Messed up thing...2 cookies, same fortune on both.
What does that say about Monday? I cannot take much more. I think I am gonna vomit.
Aggravation
Myspace status stalking has proven yet again she is a dil.
PIA is looking for houses this week
Do you know how annoyed I am by the whole "MOVING YET AGAIN" I am?? The girls deserve so much better. We cannot get custody because Superdaddy is on the road and I would be raising them. Our state will not remove from "natural parent" and place in care of step parent unless it is a case of abuse. Plus the bull shit with bubba we cannot afford a second attorney to fight it. Hell in almost 6 years, we have lived in 2 places; she has lived in 5 places and is looking to move again. We are actually looking to move about 3 hours north. I wonder how that will go over if it comes to it. Our school system sucks. We need to go somewhere. Not sure moving to "the sticks" is the answer, but as far away from my in laws as we can move the better.
PIA is looking for houses this week
Do you know how annoyed I am by the whole "MOVING YET AGAIN" I am?? The girls deserve so much better. We cannot get custody because Superdaddy is on the road and I would be raising them. Our state will not remove from "natural parent" and place in care of step parent unless it is a case of abuse. Plus the bull shit with bubba we cannot afford a second attorney to fight it. Hell in almost 6 years, we have lived in 2 places; she has lived in 5 places and is looking to move again. We are actually looking to move about 3 hours north. I wonder how that will go over if it comes to it. Our school system sucks. We need to go somewhere. Not sure moving to "the sticks" is the answer, but as far away from my in laws as we can move the better.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Give me a break PLEASE!
Things have not let up.
Bubba is away at camp for this week.
Superdaddy called me and talked to me this weekend just not so much when he came home Sunday.
Miss J is feeling better from her surgery however the next few days is when the scabs come off and it gets worse. Pathology came back abnormal for her.
My brother in AZ called me to find out if I had heard from brother in our state. He apparently is homeless.
My mom may be having serious health issues something from the past may have come back like 5 years ago or so without a fucking doctor telling her. Something very bad. She is going for additional tests coming up. I am the only person to know besides her; and well now you guys.
PIA put on her myspace "is looking at houses this weekend!" What does that mean? The whore is looking to move yet again. Yet the girls have lived in the house they have now since right around xmas time and guess what?? THEY STILL HAVE NO BEDS TO SLEEP IN!!
They say God will not give you more than you can handle, but I think I am seriously at my breaking point. I cannot handle much more.
Bubba is away at camp for this week.
Superdaddy called me and talked to me this weekend just not so much when he came home Sunday.
Miss J is feeling better from her surgery however the next few days is when the scabs come off and it gets worse. Pathology came back abnormal for her.
My brother in AZ called me to find out if I had heard from brother in our state. He apparently is homeless.
My mom may be having serious health issues something from the past may have come back like 5 years ago or so without a fucking doctor telling her. Something very bad. She is going for additional tests coming up. I am the only person to know besides her; and well now you guys.
PIA put on her myspace "is looking at houses this weekend!" What does that mean? The whore is looking to move yet again. Yet the girls have lived in the house they have now since right around xmas time and guess what?? THEY STILL HAVE NO BEDS TO SLEEP IN!!
They say God will not give you more than you can handle, but I think I am seriously at my breaking point. I cannot handle much more.
Friday, June 20, 2008
Not good
Superdaddy hasn't spoken to me in almost 2 days. This weekend is camping with the boy scouts so I will not see him all weekend. I think between Bubba's legal trouble and the pregnancy things are not looking to get better any time soon.
I am sick and tired of being so damn stressed out.
At work, I work for 4 surgeons. There is 3 other ladies that insist I am their secretary as well. They keep on dumping shit in my email for me to do for them and then running to my boss when I don't drop my surgeon's shit to do theirs. One even made a comment "Here is more stuff I need to dump on you YIPPEE!!" Yeah anyways. Just had to vent before my body self destructs from depression and stress.
I am sick and tired of being so damn stressed out.
At work, I work for 4 surgeons. There is 3 other ladies that insist I am their secretary as well. They keep on dumping shit in my email for me to do for them and then running to my boss when I don't drop my surgeon's shit to do theirs. One even made a comment "Here is more stuff I need to dump on you YIPPEE!!" Yeah anyways. Just had to vent before my body self destructs from depression and stress.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Life
Blight court is a ticket for a messy yard. We do not have a garage hence no storage place. We have bicycles and ATV's in our yard. And apparently it is against city ordinance to have your trash can next to your house it needs to go behind your home. My house has no back yard. It is all front yard.
My dog bit some guy last week. We just went through the 10 day quarantine. She (the boy's mother) didn't think we had the dog licensed or whatever and made a police report. The dog catcher came by; looked at the dog; said everything was ok because she was licensed. Then the cops sent us the ticket for "dog at large' which by the way is a misdemeanor and mandatory court appearance. The dog is registered to Superdaddy. He cannot afford to take time off of work because it would not be just a one day deal, it would turn out to be a 3 day deal with his load running the way it does.
The lawyer thing is bad. Really bad. My son is being accused of something really bad. We need to figure out how to pay for a lawyer for him. He is being accused of a life felony charge. VERY BAD!!! Oh yeah and the detective lied to us. Nice huh.
My dog bit some guy last week. We just went through the 10 day quarantine. She (the boy's mother) didn't think we had the dog licensed or whatever and made a police report. The dog catcher came by; looked at the dog; said everything was ok because she was licensed. Then the cops sent us the ticket for "dog at large' which by the way is a misdemeanor and mandatory court appearance. The dog is registered to Superdaddy. He cannot afford to take time off of work because it would not be just a one day deal, it would turn out to be a 3 day deal with his load running the way it does.
The lawyer thing is bad. Really bad. My son is being accused of something really bad. We need to figure out how to pay for a lawyer for him. He is being accused of a life felony charge. VERY BAD!!! Oh yeah and the detective lied to us. Nice huh.
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Just great
Miss J had surgery today. She had her tonsils out. Today was a day spent taking care of her. If she does not keep drinking fluids, I may have to borrow some one's duct tape and make her. Just kidding.
The stupid OB nurse called me apparently, my 1 hour GTT was a little high. She needs me to do a 3 hour test. Great. I am only 9 weeks and normally they don't do the test til 24 weeks or so. What does this mean? Beats me!
In other news, looks like bubba needs an attorney. GREAT!! just great.
Looks like it is going to be a long summer.
Oh yeah, we still have to hear back about the blight ticket ($250) if they are going to drop it or not and the dog bite ticket is $125. Looks like I better try planting that damn money tree again. Sheesh.
The stupid OB nurse called me apparently, my 1 hour GTT was a little high. She needs me to do a 3 hour test. Great. I am only 9 weeks and normally they don't do the test til 24 weeks or so. What does this mean? Beats me!
In other news, looks like bubba needs an attorney. GREAT!! just great.
Looks like it is going to be a long summer.
Oh yeah, we still have to hear back about the blight ticket ($250) if they are going to drop it or not and the dog bite ticket is $125. Looks like I better try planting that damn money tree again. Sheesh.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Better day
We are supposed to go to see the school buses race in the figure 8 this Saturday. Hopefully PIA will allow the girls to come seeing how it is father's day and all. The storms in the mid west are heart breaking. They certainly need a break. After hearing about all the deaths and tragedy, I feel guilt for wallowing in my problems and realizing how blessed I really am. We have a 2 income home and healthy children. We are able to afford to feed and clothe them. We are able to afford to do a few extras as well and I am sitting on the "pity potty" about the legal problem with Bubba. Wondering what the hell I am going to do with him. He really is a great child. Little mouthy at times (most of the time). He does what he is asked to do after reminding him more than 10 times to do it. Gets good grades at school; only got suspended 2 times this year; now this. Poor choice of actions, poor judgement, valuable lesson none the less.
With all of the stress, it was amazing that I did not smoke at all. Baby probably saved me from my crazed addiction. My kidney's did not fair as well as my lungs though. I drank a 2ltr of Mtdew and paid for it now boy.
Dr. appt sucked butt yesterday. They did a pregnancy test, asked a boat load of questions, and stuck me for 12 tubes of blood. Oh yeah I had to do the 1 hour GTT at 8 weeks 3 days pregnant. Figure that one out. Probably because I am overweight. No worries, things have so far checked out. HIV negative, STD negative, GTT negative, IRON low, Pregnancy test POSITIVE (good thing or I would have been mad drinking that sugar shit).
Happy Father's day to everyone. Give your dad's a hug. Dad I miss you more today than I did yesterday. Love you!
With all of the stress, it was amazing that I did not smoke at all. Baby probably saved me from my crazed addiction. My kidney's did not fair as well as my lungs though. I drank a 2ltr of Mtdew and paid for it now boy.
Dr. appt sucked butt yesterday. They did a pregnancy test, asked a boat load of questions, and stuck me for 12 tubes of blood. Oh yeah I had to do the 1 hour GTT at 8 weeks 3 days pregnant. Figure that one out. Probably because I am overweight. No worries, things have so far checked out. HIV negative, STD negative, GTT negative, IRON low, Pregnancy test POSITIVE (good thing or I would have been mad drinking that sugar shit).
Happy Father's day to everyone. Give your dad's a hug. Dad I miss you more today than I did yesterday. Love you!
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Life
Things in my life have not gotten better, nor gotten any worse. They have kind of plateaued. I have turned my spirits over to the man upstairs. I have cried so hard the last few days, I think I very well may be starting to dehydrate. Honestly, if I didn't know I was pregnant, I would have went and spent $5 on a pack of cigarettes. I swear I could taste them it was so bad.
Because of recent events, our family is in for some pretty life changing events coming up here in the future. Not just the baby, but our family as a whole with schools, and location and such. Will have to share details when they are a little more firmed up.
I have to go to the doctors today for my first visit and with all the stress, I am afraid what my blood pressure will be.
I think there is something in the air because my coworker is a wreck. I don't know the details, nor would I share specifics, but it is bad. Very bad.
To those friends online that are in hard hit weather areas, I pray everyone in your family is safe.
Because of recent events, our family is in for some pretty life changing events coming up here in the future. Not just the baby, but our family as a whole with schools, and location and such. Will have to share details when they are a little more firmed up.
I have to go to the doctors today for my first visit and with all the stress, I am afraid what my blood pressure will be.
I think there is something in the air because my coworker is a wreck. I don't know the details, nor would I share specifics, but it is bad. Very bad.
To those friends online that are in hard hit weather areas, I pray everyone in your family is safe.
Heartache
Tornado Levels Boy Scout Camp In Iowa
Two people are dead in northern Kansas after tornadoes cut a diagonal path across the state Wednesday night, authorities said.
A spokeswoman for the Kansas Adjutant General's Department said one victim was found in a yard in the town of Chapman. The other was found outside a mobile home in the Jackson County town of Soldier.
The most extensive damage from the tornado outbreak appears to be in Chapman.
A half-mile-wide tornado tore through the town, destroying more than 60 homes and numerous businesses. All three schools were damaged.
A tornado also hit the campus of Kansas State University in Manhattan, damaging buildings and tossing cars.
No injuries were reported there.
In Blencoe, Iowa, a tornado that ripped through a Boy Scout camp in western Iowa added to the weather crisis in a state hit by flooding in the east.
At least four people were killed Wednesday evening when the powerful twister struck the 1,800-acre camp where 93 boys and 25 staff members were attending a weeklong leadership training camp.
More than 40 people were hurt.
A Boy Scout official said the twister destroyed all the buildings and tents and most of the trees. Rescuers dug through piles of debris to reach trapped victims, some of them sheltering under tables.
A rescue official said everyone at the camp has been accounted for.
The National Weather Service issued two warnings minutes before the tornado hit, but it's not clear if the camp had sirens.
Tornadoes also touched down in southern Minnesota and eastern Nebraska.
Bubba is scheduled to to to "Leadership training" next week in our state. My heart is broken for the families of these 'best of the best' boy scouts. Dear Lord please be with their families during this very difficult time.
Two people are dead in northern Kansas after tornadoes cut a diagonal path across the state Wednesday night, authorities said.
A spokeswoman for the Kansas Adjutant General's Department said one victim was found in a yard in the town of Chapman. The other was found outside a mobile home in the Jackson County town of Soldier.
The most extensive damage from the tornado outbreak appears to be in Chapman.
A half-mile-wide tornado tore through the town, destroying more than 60 homes and numerous businesses. All three schools were damaged.
A tornado also hit the campus of Kansas State University in Manhattan, damaging buildings and tossing cars.
No injuries were reported there.
In Blencoe, Iowa, a tornado that ripped through a Boy Scout camp in western Iowa added to the weather crisis in a state hit by flooding in the east.
At least four people were killed Wednesday evening when the powerful twister struck the 1,800-acre camp where 93 boys and 25 staff members were attending a weeklong leadership training camp.
More than 40 people were hurt.
A Boy Scout official said the twister destroyed all the buildings and tents and most of the trees. Rescuers dug through piles of debris to reach trapped victims, some of them sheltering under tables.
A rescue official said everyone at the camp has been accounted for.
The National Weather Service issued two warnings minutes before the tornado hit, but it's not clear if the camp had sirens.
Tornadoes also touched down in southern Minnesota and eastern Nebraska.
Bubba is scheduled to to to "Leadership training" next week in our state. My heart is broken for the families of these 'best of the best' boy scouts. Dear Lord please be with their families during this very difficult time.
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Not so good
Terrible day. Started off bad...went to worse.
Say a prayer or whatever for me. Lord knows I need strength right now.
The baby is ok...the older kid well that is another story. He is ok physically too. God is testing me. I certainly do not need patience. I need strength.
Say a prayer or whatever for me. Lord knows I need strength right now.
The baby is ok...the older kid well that is another story. He is ok physically too. God is testing me. I certainly do not need patience. I need strength.
Monday, June 09, 2008
Life
How can something that was wanted so much feel so bad? If I hear one more time how do you know your pregnant you haven't gone to the doctor yet? I remember him doing this with Chicky and all but give me a break. Part of me thinks this may put a huge strain on our marriage. I mean I have been pregnant 5 times and it is not like I made my period go MIA. I think part of it is the fact that we have been trying going on 2 entire years. Part of the problem though is this...he is only home on weekends at best. How can one time ovulation on that?
I'm just not coping today. This weekend was very trying on me. I never did make it to the cemetery. My house is still a wreck, the laundry didn't get completed, and I have a sink full of dishes still. What did I do all weekend?
Next weekend is the school bus races. I asked him if he wanted to go. The kids love to go. It is a fun day out at the race track. He won't answer me. Like what the heck is he going to do if he is home alone?
The girls got their hair did this weekend. Will have to catch a pic of them to post. Miss J chopped hers very short so she can donate it to the kids with cancer. Chicky just wanted her bangs done but did end up with a little off the back.
I'm just not coping today. This weekend was very trying on me. I never did make it to the cemetery. My house is still a wreck, the laundry didn't get completed, and I have a sink full of dishes still. What did I do all weekend?
Next weekend is the school bus races. I asked him if he wanted to go. The kids love to go. It is a fun day out at the race track. He won't answer me. Like what the heck is he going to do if he is home alone?
The girls got their hair did this weekend. Will have to catch a pic of them to post. Miss J chopped hers very short so she can donate it to the kids with cancer. Chicky just wanted her bangs done but did end up with a little off the back.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Happy birthday old man!
Today you would be 53. Dang you are getting old. The kids and I will sing you happy birthday like we do every year. I don't know if we will make it to the cemetery or not because it is supposed to be rainy. For sure father's day of course. I sure do miss you more than words can every explain.
It is hard to believe in September will be the beginning of 8 years since you have gone to Heaven. Just last week, you welcomed H's mom to heaven. She is sorely missed by her family as well. Give her a hug and tell her I am sorry I wasn't there to say good bye.
Please keep watch over my friend M's unborn baby. They are having a rough go this time around. Please keep watch over our unborn baby as well. Keep him/her healthy and strong.
I LOVE YOU! and I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Pregnant friend
If you are the praying type, I know someone who is in desperate need of prayers right now. She has had a pretty stressful doctor appointment yesterday and it doesn't look good. Though I have never met her in real life, she has 2 beautiful girls who are her world and had the flu for a while; never entertaining the idea of pregnancy and was blessed with a "surprise". This pregnancy has been extremely hard on her and my heart aches for her. I could barely sleep after hearing her news. Please pray or send her vibes or something; for a healthy baby and her own health as she is fairing pretty poorly these days.
Please Dear God let there be a happy outcome for my pregnant friend whom I have never met. She has gone through so many trials and she really needs you to be present by her side as well as her unborn baby's side during this very stressful time. Amen.
Please Dear God let there be a happy outcome for my pregnant friend whom I have never met. She has gone through so many trials and she really needs you to be present by her side as well as her unborn baby's side during this very stressful time. Amen.
Monday, June 02, 2008
Camping
Miss G is hot rodding!
Miss J hot rodding!
Miss M being cute
Tent city
Cousin's girl hot rodding!
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