Aparently neither do they

I just don't get it. Perhaps I never will. The girls were dropped off last night. Fine and dandy. They went to play with my girls (who by the way are up north) and came back looking for them. I told them the girls with with grandma. Well low and behold, Miss M was in hysterics she didn't want to be at our house. She was crying so bad, she could not catch her breath. She called DQ and told her she wanted to go home. DQ didn't answer the phone though or call back.

I don't know really what she puts in the girls' heads but it seems like Miss M is getting more and more emotional about everything. She is starting to be a basket case.

Today Bubba is babysitting and all seems well. Last night, Miss M was determined she was not going to bed she was going home. It was a very long night. She even talked to superdaddy and everything but nothing seemed to make it better. Hopefully, she will be ok tonight. Superdaddy is going to be in Pennsylvania for a trainers meeting of some sort and then come home Saturday night. I need a vacation!!!

I just don't wanna anymore

Any of my RLF can tell ya that I am all about my kids. If my kids can't do it than more than likely, I will not do it as well. I am and have always been the responsible one. The one to just do it. I just don't want to. I lost a lot of friends (or so called) because I choose not to do something because of the kids. That was my choice. I still am like it. Bet you think you know where this is going...WRONG

I am tired of always being the responsible one. I know I choose that path the minute I choose to have children. And just think, superdaddyof6 and I are considering another in the near future. I am tired of being a door mat. Tired of being a built in babysitter. This weekend, superdaddy is working until late Saturday and it really is not our weekend. Fine and dandy. Miss J and Chicky are up north with my grandparents until July 4. Bubba is going to camp Sunday. Get my drift. I am almost kid less. Free to do grown up stuff. That is until yesterday. DQ supposedly is having a big dinner party at work that she has to cook all the food for. Like Cater. And "the little ones" are in her way. Little ones are 8 and 6 and love to help in the kitchen anyway they can if you let them. Superdaddy said she wanted them to come last night. Never mind I have to work and he is in Pennsylvania. She just doesn't give a shit that she is inconveniencing someone.

Now don't think I am complaining about having some quality time with just my step-girls. That is not it. I love when they visit. I was just looking forward to "spring cleaning" their bedroom of some toys and such this weekend and they will be garbage picking. That and the fact that DQ has caused me more than one headache in the past and she thinks I am the drop in babysitter.

That is what I don't wanna anymore.

HUMMPPPHHH!!

Happy Birthday Miss M!

Geeshh, where has the time gone? Happy 6th Birthday Miss M! I remember the day when I first met you. You were just under 18 months. You could barely keep up with the older girls. You tried your hardest to run after them. I had to get on them to slow down so you could keep up when playing tag. As you grew older, you grew up. You are growing into a beautiful young lady. You are getting so big and so smart.

As far as you remember, I have always been a part of your life and for that I am greatful. Your mom and dad love you with all of their hearts and noone can take that away from you or them. Your parents are wonderful and have done a great job with you and your sister. Just remember, though you are my step-daughter, I will always love you and your sisters as though you were my own children. Just remember beautiful, you will always be my giggle butt. Happy birthday Miss M and thank you for sharing your happy birthday day with me your step-mother. Love you - Your Step-mom.

Not a good way to start the day

Argggg That is all I can say. Supperdaddy went to leave for work this morning and damn it someone broke into the vehicles and stole his laptop bag with laptop in it, his Cobra CB radio, Booster antenna, MP3 player, DVD player, and cell phone charger. They left his damn log book and training manual that was in the bag for Christ sake. The laptop isn't even paid off yet :(

So I am awake at 6 am to a not so happy superdaddy bitching about not finding his bag. FUN TIMES I TELL YA.

So now, I am no so patiently waiting for the police to show up. ARGGGG


On another note, today bubba is making his confirmation at Church. He has worked long and hard and has finally made it. He just came home from leader training with scouts yesterday and boy was he whipped.

Happy Summer Solstice to all

Just thought I would wish everyone a Happy Summer Solstice to everyone out there who celebrates and who doesn't. This is the longest day of sunlight in the northern hemisphere.

The difference in 10 years......
10 years ago today was a Saturday, it was my first wedding. Since that day, my ex-hubby is dead, his mom is dead, my aunt who I got married in her yard is dead, my other aunt is dead, his grandma and grandpa are dead, my father, his wife, my grandma's cousin they are all dead. I have a picture in my first wedding album that has me and many angel's in it. They have since gone to heaven or Mt. Olive as my ex would have claimed.

Wow 10 years already.

About me Stolen from Superchick

Describe in one word:
1.Yourself: Supermommy
2.Your Partner: Dreamy
3. Your hair: Boring
4: Your mother: Cranky
5. Your Father: Missed
6. Your Favorite Item: Pictures
7. Your Dream last night: Dunno
8. Your favorite drink: Daquiri
9. Your dream car: Convertable
10. The room you are in: Freezing
11. Your ex: Addict
12. Your fear: Trapped
13. What you want to be in 10 years: Graduate
14. Who you hung out with last night: Hubby
15. What you're not: Fake
16. Muffins: Chocolate
17. One of your wish list items: Happiness
18. Time: History
19. The last thing you did: Emailed
20. What are you wearing: Purple
21. Your favorite weather: Rainy
22. Your favorite book: Postsecret
23. The last thing you ate or drank: Water
24. Your life: Busy
25. Your mood: Exhausted
26. Your best friend: Hubby
27. What are you thinking about right now: Camping
28. Your car: MadMomMiniVan
29. What are you doing at the moment: Working
30. Your summer: NotRelaxing
31. Your relationship status: Happy
32. What is on your TV: Off
33. What is the weather like: Beautiful
34. When was the last time your laughed: Morning

Wheels on the bus go round and round...

So Happy Father's Day to all dad's out there. Hope everyone has an enjoyable weekend with their kids. For the father's who have lost their children, please take the time to reflect and be filled with loving memories. For the Father's to be and trying to be, may you find time to relax this weekend and be blessed.

Hopefully DQ will let the girls come over on Saturday instead of just Sunday. After last weekend's drama, she is probably going to give us a hard time. We were hoping for all weekend, but that just maybe pushing it as last weekend was ours. We will see.

The excitement for the weekend is the cancer walk. The girls (hopefully all of them) will be walking right next to Auntie R. She is a breast cancer survivor. We will be doing the short walk only 1 mile because the little ones will be walking with us and Auntie R. isn't quite brave enough to attempt the 4 mile one.

The second event of excitement is the School Bus Figure 8 races. We went last year and had a blast. The evening was filled with so much excitement. There were little cars, and race cars, and school buses. The last race had 8 different buses going in the figure 8. 2 of the buses tipped on its side and the kids loved it.

Sunday, we will probably barbecue and do yard work as we are in process of spring cleaning the inside of the house. Should be fun.

Have a wonderful weekend and remember the wheels on the bus go around and around.....

Liars never prosper

Ya know what is embarrassing: going shopping and them refusing your check.

So Miss J and Chicky and I went to the local grocery store last night. Knowing if I wrote a check, it would not cash before direct deposit hit today. So along we went, filling up the basket with necessities and a few perks. The kids wanted junk food and I kept telling them I didn't have enough money for that this week. Well nosey bitch worker must have eavesdropped while she was putting rejected merchandise on the shelves. So long story short, the cashier rang it all up and decided it needed a check approval. She turned away and was talking to manager or whoever who said I'll be right back. When she came back, she informed me my bank was closed (like no shit it was 8pm) and she could not verify funds for my check?!?!?!?

My check was for $76.83. I was like excuse met? I wrote a check here 3 days ago for $96.71 and they didn't have to "verify funds". Apparently, she felt the need to check to see if I had money in the bank and my bank was closed already.

Said "manager" was nosey bitch putting rejected merchandise back on shelf. I hope she has to eat powdered mac n cheese for dinner one day instead of steak and tuna salad and watermelon. For dinner last night, we had powdered mac n cheese. Ewww. Kids don't mind but me I think EWWWW!!!

Oh yeah, kids don't even have milk or bread today for food. Looks like Eggs for lunch until I can get to the store during banking hours or a different store for groceries.

Did I tell you I hate powdered Mac n cheese?

Frustrating weekend

First things first, I gave nick names for the players in my life. Take note on left side menu.

Friday when DQ came to drop the kids off, Miss M decided she didn't want to stay with me until superdaddy came home which was totally fine with me but I made her call superdaddy and let him know. DQ took the phone from her and started a screaming argument with superdaddy right in front of the kids screaming and yelling. Totally uncalled for. Anyhow, Miss M decided she was not going to come all weekend as now she was so very upset because DQ was yelling at superdaddy. DQ took Miss M home and we stayed out and played outside as it was a nice night.

Saturday, we did our normal chores and such. Nothing big and glamorous except we got a new computer desk. The old one was pretty sad.

Sunday, after church, we decided to barbecue and have a few friends over. This was wonderful. We had a great time with our friends and the kids got to play outside with each other. The fun time came when it was getting closer to Miss G going home. She was clearly getting anxious as the afternoon wore on. She wanted to call DQ and ask if she could stay about 2 hours more. DQ agreed. She was getting more worked up by the minute. As the time went on, Miss G got hysterical. She was very adamant she did not want to go home. Through some prompting and such we got a few answers.

Superdaddy placed a call to DQ and boy was that a Hoopla. Poor Miss G probably got an ear full when DQ got home. I took Miss G home and she cried almost all the way home. I felt terrible making her go somewhere she obviously didn't want to go, but what can I do? I left her with her older sis telling her to be good for DQ and I would see her again soon. That was the longest car ride I have ever had to take.

We will see what happens with the whole ordeal. In a few years, a judge will listen to her and take her choice into consideration. Until that day, my heart breaks to have to make her go somewhere she does not want to be.

Amen

A patient at a University of Michigan Health System hospital whose double-lung transplant operation was stopped after a plane carrying donor organs crashed into Lake Michigan, killing six members of a Survival Flight team, has received a second set of lungs, doctors announced Friday.

http://www.clickondetroit.com/news/13467261/detail.html

Though I do not know the transplant team, I have felt their pain. Our team has felt their pain. It could have been our guys on that plane. We use the same place to fly out of. Our guys knew their guys. Very humbling. You can cut the air with a knife that is how tense it was here. I am overjoyed with hearing the recipient got his miracle.

Life is too short.

A moment of silence please

Please take a moment out of your busy life and acknowledge a tragedy. Please pray for the families and coworkers of those involved.

Tragic...Simply Tragic.

These people died trying to save another.


http://www.clickondetroit.com/news/13441002/detail.html

Coast Guard: No Survivors In Jet Crash
University Of Michigan Transplant Team Were On Board Jet

To the angels on that flight may you rest in peace and God Bless! You will be missed.

Happy Birthday Dad!

Wow, the difference in 7 years. It has been 7 years since I have said Happy Birthday to you in person. Things have been moving along just swimmingly in our lives. The kids and I miss you so very much. Since you have become an angel, so many others have passed...my first hubby, his mom, you wife, almost fil.

I miss you so much. I lay awake some nights with regret. Regret that I didn't do many things with you, that we didn't spend enough time together; that the kids didn't get to know you as well as they should have.

So many things have gone unspoken. So many things are said now only in prayer.

Bubba is doing well in school. You would be proud of him. He wants to take auto mechanics in high school. Next year he will be in high school. Damn that makes me feel old. Only 4 short more years and then college. Eeek. He really wants your Corvette. If not yours from grandma, he wants to get one like yours. I told him dream on he needs a junker first. I think he is going to be a gear head like you. He is always wrenching on something every chance he gets. Lately has been ATVs in the back yard. He helps take them apart and does not put them back together right away. Imagine that. He seems to want a motorcycle too. Definitely a boy after your own heart.

Miss J, well she is doing ok. The other day she told me that she saw your dog and insisted it was yours. I didn't have the heart to tell her your dogs died before you did. She is finally going to get extra help with reading from the school. I get so frustrated with homework time. She tries, but she just doesn't get it. I remember the time you got frustrated with Jeffrey and shoved a peanut butter and jelly in his face because he just didn't get it. I haven't done that, but I have sent her to bed before homework was done because I lost my patience. She found your AA book in our basement the other day and was going to "read grandpa's book" for a book report. Yeah ok. She is going to do a dance class at church coming up. I guess it is a spiritual dance of sorts.

Chicky: You have never seen Chicky except from heaven. She is a spitting image of me. She sees your pictures and we talk about you often. She wanted a 4 wheeler for Xmas. Imagine that. Starting out young. She always can be caught with a screwdriver trying to take something apart.

The other girls, well, we talk about you and they ask about you and go to the cemetery with us. They haven't been exposed to dying and such. They don't understand. At church, they always pray that you watch over us and keep us safe. Miss G wishes that she was able to meet you and call you grandpa. Miss M well, she just kind of floats around with the rest of the kids. They do miss getting to know you. You would be proud of the kids regardless.

She lost out on you. We have lost out on having you see the kids, giving me away (mom did that though) .

Brother is in N.C. Boy is that a mess. He flew the coup and got the heck out of Dodge just like you always wanted to. He seems to be holding his own. We miss him very much. We are talking about moving to the mountains. Not Alabama as you wanted to go to, but out of here that is for sure.

I guess what it boils down to is this... I MISS YOU! Happy birthday Old Man! The Big 52.

No rest for the wicked

Wicked step mom that is...

His ex tried to dump the kids on us this weekend. Ya know, is there scouts, the girls said there was. It is urgent you call me. BLAH BLAH.

Found out Friday that FIL who was going away for a month, is not planning on returning. HUH?

We took him to dinner on Friday at my fav place BD's. Was asked to babysit for my baby sitter's kids on Saturday afternoon. I guess I didn't realize she meant after noon. Like 12:01. I had so much crap to do and well, when she dropped the kids off, I was strapped to the house. Had yard work to do, but son broke the lawnmower somehow. Had to go and see about getting a new one. We got our yard cut just as the rain came down (talk about luck) and it really didn't stop raining. Talk about going stir crazy. Had the normal kids and the babysitters kids locked up in the house because of the rain.

Sunday, it was still raining and my mom's grass needed to get done as did my bro's. Had son go to grandma's house to do her grass and he was almost done and the sky opened up again. Made him finish in rain. Somehow there is never enough time in the weekends to finish all that needs to get done. I need a week of: Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday. Yeah ok: my luck, ex will send the kids to visit.

This weekend coming up is our weekend and the following weekend being father's day will be ours and the following ours as well. So much for a tidy house...