Merry Christmas!

Here and gone. Here for a brief moment, gone the next.

Weird how the text messages come. I have gotten text messages from 4 people today that I haven't spoken to in almost a year. Weird how people take about 60 whole seconds to type out a text message yet wont place a call.

Santa came to our house and brought lots of presents to celebrate the birth of our Savior. Presents for the kids to fight over. We sang happy birthday to Jesus with the kids and all. Too bad this year wasn't about family like it usually is. It really is getting to be too much with the COMMERCIALISM of the whole season.

Seems like the kids are learning more about what really is important for the holidays and for that I am thankful. Well I hope everyone out in Cyber land had a merry Christmas and Santa was good to them. God Bless and keep you!

Stolen from Superchick's Blog

I saw this on her blog...and it looked like fun!

You can only type one word. No explanations.

Yourself: Loveable

Your Partner: Scattered

Your Hair: Straight

Your Mother: Loopy

Your Father: Missed

Your Favorite Item: Memories

Your Dream Last Night: Vacation

Your Favorite Drink: Mountain Dew

Your Dream Car: Expedition

Your Dream Home: Colonial

The Room You Are In: Front

Your Ex: Dead

Your Fear: Lonliness

Where You Want to be in Ten Years: Happy

Who You Hung Out With Last Night: Church

What You’re Not: Dead

Muffins: Pumpkin

One of Your Wish List Items: Peace

Time: Gone

The Last Thing You Did: Bake

What You Are Wearing: Pants

Your Favorite Weather: Warmer

Your Favorite Book: Eragon

Last Thing You Ate: Eggs

Your Life: Termoil

Your Mood: Depressed

Your Best Friends: Awsome

What Are You Thinking About Right Now: Revenge

Your Car: Minivan

What Are You Doing at the Moment: Crying

Your Summer: Wonderful

Relationship Status: Married

What Is On Your TV: Law-n-order

What Is The Weather Like: Freezing

When Is The Last Time You Laughed: Today

Everyone wants money and it SUCKS!!

I guess in a round about way, it is good that he has been gone for going on 3 weeks. I miss him dearly, more than words can say. Bills...bills...and more bills. Then there DQ. MONEY...MONEY...MONEY.

BOY OH BOY DO I HATE EX'S

The point......

The sherrif's office was just here to serve and claim a warrent for superdaddy's arrest. For child support. Because she wants all of his arrearages paid up front...NOW. She took him to court knowing he would not be able to attend due to working out of town. Now there is a warrent. Of course it is the week of the holidays. Of course it is the end of the year. Of course we are broke as a joke.

Logically, the only thing we can ask is that his work keep him out of the state until we can pony up the cash. Not practical for him, I or the children, but that is an option.

Until then....Happy holidays out there in cyber land and Blessings to the new year!

So much to do, so little time

Geez, the days keep on coming and going. We have so much to do to keep my family busy now a days. We found out yesterday, superdaddy will be gone on the road until the weekend of Christmas. No weekend congigal visits. :( It will make for a sweet home coming. Our tree is up (just no lights still) and decorated with all new ornaments this year as we still have no lights on it and the only things on it are the newly made ornaments.

Things are starting to look up as there are many "blessed Santa clause's" blessing our family this year. Some how things are coming together when I really didn't think they would in time. Generosity from other people has me in awwe. God is good and so are friends.

Doing the right thing

Ever do something that you know was right and fell like committing political suicide afterwards? Even though I know it was right to say it, I still feel that way.

A friend of mine recently lost her job; some people were commenting some pretty rotten comments about her. Stupid shit like she only wanted the free lunches from the reps. Offer food and she would be first in line. About how she would embarrass the department at the party because of getting hammered. I stood up for her. I told them how I felt and that it was wrong to gossip and say mean things.

I mean, lets face it, anyone who is pretty broke like free lunches just as well as the next guy. Offer a free meal and I AM SO THERE!!!

My friend and I talked about the whole Holiday party and drinking issue. How it is a terrible idea to get hammered with your coworkers. Well, someone was saying that my friend as asking everyone for their drink tickets. WTF?

Noone commented about the "well respected" coworker who RSVP'd for 17 guests so she could have more than 2 drink tickets. I think 2 drinks per person is more than enough. Especially in our line of business; especially when you have to drive home.

So I did the right thing and now they are treating me like crap and probably saying stuff about me too. There is so much politics at work now a days; Almost worse than High School Drama B.S.

I KNOW I DID THE RIGHT THING!!

Quite the weekend

Where to begin...This weekend was not at all what was supposed to be like. The step-children did not come until Sunday. Saturday superdaddy came home from Missouri and didn't get to the yard until almost 11 pm. We had an argument on the phone and well...it was ugly. I went to pick him up and drove home in a very quiet car. This whole weekend was really quiet as it was an ugly argument.

Sunday when the kids woke up it was nice to surprise them with daddy being home. The step-kids came too and got a surprise. I put his clothes in the washer and got ready to go to church. We couldn't find his phone. Instead of going to church, he went down to the truck to see if he left it in there. He didn't find it.

After church we went to have breakfast with Santa and take the step-kids home. The morning went by so fast. Needless to say still no phone. Getting him packed up to leave again on Sunday we found his phone (in the washer YIKES). Things just cannot go the right way for one day. His phone is history unless of course you need a vib. Anyways, he is off and running again (with an old phone) until this weekend hopefully.

Hopefully things will get back to semi-normal. I need normalcy for a little bit. Thanks for stopping by...ADIOS!!

Worrying myself an ulcer....

There is so much to do and just not enough time to be a single parent doing it. Scouts, Brownies, House Cleaning, Working, Shopping, Wrapping, Decorating. Ugg!

I wish I could snap my fingers and have some things done at home sometimes. We need to do so many things prior to the holidays and there just isn't time.

Tomorrow is Brownies, Saturday is decorating the church, Sunday is church and Breakfast with Santa and Advent by candlelight, Monday is church, Tuesday is Reveal day at church, Wednesday is Advent services, Friday is Brownies.

We still need to put up our tree. We still need to clean the house to put up the tree. We still need to get the Christmas stuff out of storage to do that.

He probably will not be home this weekend. He has done half a day of driving and sitting due to no trailer available. We desperately need the money. Why does it seem that the closer to holidays the more people want money? I cannot wait until we don't have to stretch each penny out of every single paycheck. Not about frivolous spending, but living comfortably again. Being able to spend money on steak instead of hot dogs. Sigh....One day in the future...

Another weekend is fast approaching. Another weekend with all the kids at the house. Another weekend with too much stuff to do to try to relax. Another weekend seemingly alone.

Sighhhh

Post Thanksgiving Reflection

Where to begin...

Our family is very thankful for my hubby's company for ensuring him being home for Thansgiving and the weekend following. We spent our first Thanksgiving with my step-daughters. Thanksgiving is DQ's holiday. It was so much fun. We made cookies and Canolli's (STAY AWAY THEY WERE TERRIBLE), turkey and all the fixin's. My kitchen was a mess!!!

The Canolli's were awful. I think I needed more wine Wednesday night. I will have to get together with Aunt R to make them for Christmas. I hope everyone out there found something to be thankful for.

A girl in our scout troop; her dad left to drive truck last week and her mom was so very sad. I wish all companies somehow made it so everyone got some family time on the holidays. Again I am so thankful hubby's company does (so far) get him home on weekends and holidays.

Until next time Adios!!

Thanksgiving eve and Cannoli's

Ahhh the wife of a truck driver's life...Got an unexpected call today from the DQ. Come get the kids she has something else to do. He is gone and I have the kids. Fine and dandy I guess. Tomorrow is her holiday......Not that I am going to complain; I love them kids; it is just ahhh well, I had so much to do today that didn't get done yet.

We are having family over for dinner tomorrow. The house has the tornado called children happen to it today. Dinner surely won't make itself and neither will the Cannoli's. Poor Auntie R. Had to call her tonight at 10 pm going "HELP ME!!" as you can see, it is almost midnight and I still have to finish. I needed to give my poor arm a rest. It feels like it will fall off any minute.

I think it is time for some more wine?!?!

Happy Thanksgiving if there is anyone out there reading this. Our family has so much to be thankful for this year. I personally am thankful for healthy children, friends, family, and that my family is going to be financially stable soon. I hope everyone else finds things to be thankful for...Adios!

What Do You Get For $10

My hubby had a weird encounter with a "Lot Lizard". He was on his way to drop his load off and stopped at a rest area to rest a little. After crawling in back and dozing off, he was awakened by a tapping on the window. There was a lady there. He cracked the window and asked what? She wanted to come in to ummm help him out. She started lifting her shirt right out in the open. He told her to MOVE ON and Get away from his truck. She then went to the next truck. I guess truckers must be good money to work for. Unfortunately, my trucker is married and he carries no cash...
I was laughing so hard when he told me this. Was pretty funny.

Will meet up with him later after conferences tonight. Got to keep the hookers away.....Quickie a day keeps the hookers away.

Hot chicks and truckers

Funny how his daily run brings him right by our home.

I didn't see him until after I took the girls to their respective places. I was driving to work on my normal route, and low and behold what do I see??? His company's truck a few cars in front of me. I called him and asked what trailer number he had and it was him.

I proceeded to tease him about hot chicks flashing truckers while on the road. Needless to say, it was rush hour traffic and he got thru the light before I did.

It sure was nice to see him tonight when I got home even if it was only for about 30 minutes. I miss him so much.

HIP HIP HORRAY!!!

Looks like someone upstairs in heaven heard my prayers (or tears). Hubby dearest got great news!!!!

Looks like his dispatcher needs to fill some dedicated runs for the next few weeks. Well one week at least. Looks like for the next week or so he will be home nightly. GREAT NEWS!!!

I haven't told the kids yet though just in case. I guess someone who normally does this run is having some sort of procedure or something so he is unable to work at least for a week (maybe longer will have to see).

I am just grinning from ear to ear!!

Till next time........

Does it ever get easier?

I feel as though I have aged a few years since he started driving. I hardly sleep at night. I feel even more tired every day. Things have not gotten easier on my side. I miss him so much. When he is home, things are great. When he is not home it sucks.

Chicky is going thru separation anxiety again. She hasn't done that since she was a wee tot. She wants to sleep in our bed at night Uggg. She misses daddy terribly. When he is home, all the kids fight for his attention.

I think we need a vacation....

HE'S HOME!

I am so happy. So glad. I missed him so much.

The kids are up his rear end. They missed him so much too.

He leaves again Sunday (well Monday at 3 am). Uggg

I wish it wasn't this hard.

Halloween reflection...

Halloween was very different this year. He has been here for every Halloween since I can remember. We missed him. Two of the kids were sick and could not go out because they had a fever.

We went to a friends Halloween party. We had a blast. The kids had fun and got a ton of candy lute. We will have candy until the cows come home that is for sure.

I hope he makes it home for Thanksgiving. I cannot believe how terribly upset I was he didn't come home this weekend. I knew it was a possibility all along, but it just sucked...SUCKED BIG TIME!!

A decent night to reflect

Things this weekend were hectic to say the least. He was as bummed out as we were. Hopefully he will be home early this weekend. After the kids went back to their moms, and we only had the 3 home, it was really quiet.

I had time to think and reflect. Reflect on where we have been and where we are going. A time to see how all of our struggles have made us stronger. A time to find out our true weeknesses. It is time to grow together and alone as individuals. A time for self reflection. I see plenty of myself that i need to change and part of me that has changed already.

Today is a new day...Lets get to where are want to be today.

Until next time....ADIOS!!

Trick or treating alone

Well knowing he wasn't going to be home on Tuesday, we had huge plans with Halloween parties and such today. Instead of sitting around mopeing, I took the kids with my aunt. They have a huge stash of candy and it isn't even Halloween yet. This was supposed to be his Halloween day with the kids. I know he is as disappointed as I am that he missed it. Too bad Halloween wasn't just one more week away then he would have been home. Well, maybe next year. Til next time...ADIOS!!

The worst weekend yet....

Looks bad for him coming home. Looks like he is stuck in Pennsylvania. The asshole who is filling in today for his regular dispatcher will not let him drive home empty. He is insisting he needs a load to come home. I just want him home. The kids just want him home.

I am so terribly disappointed :(

Word cannot describe...

Tonight just sucks

I guess the hard part is missing him. He is so frustrated and so am I. I hate the fact that he is not home. Hopefully he will be home tomorrow. He got laid over in Jersey. He should have been on his way home from Pennsylvania not on his way to Jersey. I guess I was a little whiney about it and he got angry.

We miss him. He should feel good to be loved. His other kids have been here at night the last 3 days. They are not used to coming over when he isn't here. Quite frankly, it has been as rough on me as it has been on them and their mother. I guess I need to quit being so selfish and be grateful he has a job. I just never imagined it would be this hard.

Until next time...Being a truckers' wife sucks sometimes :(

So much for coming home on Friday's

Today sucks! Aside from having the kids this weekend and Halloween stuff going on, he was supposed to be home sometime tonight. I told the kids he would be there tonight. Well Jersey is just too far away...Almost a whole day away and he just got there :(

Looks like he will miss the school Halloween dance tonight and possibly the church party tomorrow. I would take coming home at 3am is better than not coming home at all tonight. This really sucks!!

Single parenting sucks!

Another long night with cranky kids. Last night had to be the worst night ever for the kids. None of them wanted to go to bed, or get a shower, or eat dinner, or be at our house. I have to say that last night was tough. I know that the kids were very tired and cranky, but when they flat out tell you I don't want to be with you I want my daddy/mom is another. I know this is a change of routine for them and it SUCKS!!

Anyways, he is supposed to be home tomorrow sometime. Hopefully it will not be too late when he gets home that way he can see the kids and spend time with them. First he goes East, then comes back West, then goes back East Ugggg.

Busy with Halloween stuff this week as well. Have a Girl Scout party tonight, school party tomorrow, church party Saturday. The kids will be loaded with sugar soon enough.

Until next time.....

All in a day's work...

Last night was certainly exhausting. Bubba had a football game. We drove around and never found the field. Apparently, they switched the field at the last minute and didn't tell the parents. How can we support them if we cannot find them?

Seems everyone wanted a shower last night at the same time. Seems as though we need a bigger hot water tank. 5 kids wanting/needing showers/baths makes for no hot water. Needless to say, the last one in gets a cold shower...That would be me....

Adios for today!

A Wife's Worries

Friday was pretty eventful. It was a long wait and come to find out, the breaks were bad so they pulled him in to change the breaks....Also needed new tires. Only one had a huge chunks of rubber missing. And I'm not supposed to worry while he is in the mountains, hauling 42,000 pounds of stuff with bad breaks and tires through the mountains. Ugh, remind me to ask him if his job offers life insurance.

Other than the worries of not making it home Friday, we had a wonderfully uneventful weekend with lots of together time. We did have all the kids for part of the day and it certainly was nice to visit.

On another note...it amazes me that Virginia needs so much from here. He is off to Virginia again. Different place in Virginia, but never-the-less Virginia. That is how the week started last week as well. We will see where this week's journey will take my lonely truck driver...

Until tomorrow or my next breakdown....Adios!!

And the wait begins...

I can hardly contain myself. I feel like a kid on Christmas Eve. He is coming home!!! He had me worried earlier. We weren't sure if he was going to be able to make it home tonight due to some service issues with the truck. I ceratinly was worried. Tomorrow is Sweetest Day. Ya know another Hallmark holiday. A day for us to be together and enjoy each other. Regardless, he will be home soon!! Till Monday Adios!!!

Another lonesome night

Well, after a long week, he will be home tomorrow. Tomorrow cannot come soon enough!! We have so many things to do this weekend. Hopefully we will have some alone time :)

Missing each other tonight...

Ahhhh...a super muddy football game in the rain. Not an ideal night to speak of. Bubba's team got creamed 16 to ZIP. As luck would turn out, it rained the whole game. We are all chilled to the bone. Nice warm showers for all of us tonight...

Kind of sucks that on such a cool night he is 700 some miles away...sleeping in a truck. I can hardly wait for this weekend to come. We will have some time together then. Hopefully all weekend...Until tomorrow; a hot shower calls my name!

Off to warmer weather...

Well today he is off to warmer climate a long ways away in West Virginia. Sure do wish I could go with him. It has been really cold here and quite frankly it sucks. Cold nights are coming sooner and sooner every year.

Sometimes in my fantasy world, we would go somewhere spectacular where it was nice and warm.

Sometime, hopefully in the future. There is always tomorrow...

Here's to another week.....

This weekend was good. Went to a friends house and had a decent weekend. Could not get home fast enough yesterday though...couldn't wait to see him. When we finally got home, we had to go get Halloween costumes for the kids. FUN...FUN...

We got to go see his truck last night before it was too dark. Not as bad as I thought, not as cozy as home...

Slept like a baby last night. God do I miss him already.......

Here's to another week........

He's Coming Home!!!

Today is a happy day. Though it is 8:30 at night;Though he will be pulling in and leaving; He is coming home. We are heading to a friends house and he is going camping. Adios' until Sunday when I become a lonely again :( Still hoping it will get easier...

Still going strong

Well he is still on the East Coast. Going from Maryland to New Jersey. Today he is going from New Jersey to Ohio. He may not make it all the way there today.

Who knows.

All I know is that I have to get ready for Girl Scouts and get him packed for Boy Scouts. The troop is going camping this weekend. We are having our first meeting and should have a blast with the new kids.

After the meeting, we are going to my friends house to visit for the weekend. Should be fun. 6 kids running around a farm. HAHA!!!

Still lonely. Hope it will get easier soon enough. HHHUUMMMPPPPPHHHH!!!!!

Feeling sorry for myself again....

Well, he is off to Maryland this evening and I am off to bed. Definitely looking forward to this weekend. Though he will be camping with scouts, I will get to see him. Though he will be home, again, we will be apart. Ugggg.....Sure hope it gets easier.

Feeling sorry for myself again....

And He's Rolling

He made it safely to Alabama. Yesterday to Tennessee and finally finished his day in Ohio. Today he will finish his drive from yesterday in Pennsylvania. We will see where he goes this afternoon.

Bubba had a football game yesterday. They played hard; they lost 30 to 24. Kind of sucks.

Certainly is a different world being a single parent again and being married on the weekend. I know people do it all the time; I was one of them in the past. Feels funny to be one again.

Nothing Like being single again :(

Yesterday was another fabulous day at church with the kids. I talked to him very briefly last night on our way home from church. He still wasn't all the way there yet. He will call me back when he gets there. He did call, while I was in the shower, he made it. He cannot locate the phone charger; his battery is going dead. Perhaps he will buy a new one. Perhaps it will be a really quiet lonely week. We will see what the rest of the week will hold.

D....Day!!!

Today is D...Day. Tomorrow was supposed to be D. Day. Today they called and told him "Your off to Nashville" This weekend was supposed to be "Our Time" instead it was his "other wife's" time. Time to go off roading. Nashville bound turned into Decatur bound. Our time goes right out the window :( Hope it isn't this hard all the time. Hummmppphhhh