Monday, December 22, 2008

Life updates

Talk about a terrible week. Last week was plain awful in terms of well everything.

Monday, my mom's car broke down. Tuesday the temp showed up late for work and we got nasty phone calls from our boss about no one answering the phone. Wednesday my car broke down on the way to work...actually at the stop sign at work and had to be pushed into the lot. Security would not help push it the good for nothings. Thursday I hitched a ride and my aunt helped get the car fixed to get it home. Thursday night, the car was less than 1/2 mile from my house and the damn thing stalled and would not start again. Never mind during the week, my furnace has been acting up on and off. The stupid heat would turn off out of the blue. Friday we got walloped with some 12 inches of snow.

The car incident was terrible; especially seeing how Superdaddy blamed the operator (me) for reckless driving and such. Turned out the damn clamp that was fixed 2 months ago broke on the fuel line. Had nothing to do with reckless driving.

Get this...Saturday the furnace went out again. Turns out the "trap door" was not pushing the safety switch igniter down enough. He finally figured it out. I suggested taping it down until he could figure out how to replace the switch. Oh no!! Terrible idea...tape will ignite. 20 minutes later...do I know where duct tape is? Asshole. Oh yeah on the other foot, "I" meaning me have not been closing the trap door properly or else we wouldn't have this problem. When I fix the damn thing it works for 2-3 days and than goes out. When he fixes it, it works maybe for 2 hours.

Husband for sale!! Any takers?!?!?!?

Guess we have the step kids from 12/19 through 12/24 am and then 12/25 through 1/1. We were happily informed mom is getting married. Her boyfriend is staying with them now. She just moved into this home. She wants a winter wedding, he wants a spring wedding. Seems to me someone is in a hurry to get married to have someone take care of her. I just hope this one is enough to make her happy and leave us the hell alone. She needs to get a life of her own and leave mine alone!!

Happy holidays to you and your family. Be safe everyone and enjoy!!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Stolen from Beth

I stole this from Beth.

*i am annoyed by the temp I am training for my medical leave (she is very lazy and quite frankly not good at working).
*i want PIA to get a life and quit trying to make our lives miserable.
*i have to get ready for the baby to come. About 4 weeks left. Where has the time gone? Oh yeah, have to get ready for Christmas as well.
*i miss having adult conversations during the week except on the phone.
*i fear dying alone and leaving my children without their mother.
*i hear we will have the step children their whole break except for Christmas-eve. How convenient. Will see what happens at court December 30th.
*i search my soul for purpose at least twice a year.
*i wonder where my life would be now if I had birthed that baby at the age of 16.
*i regret a few things that obviously shaped me into who I am today.
*i love my family and life in general.
*i forgive when I need to. Just forgetting is that hard part.
*i ache to have my husband and my family whole during the week.
*i always tell my family everyday just how much I love them.
*i try to be patient and fair. Sometimes I am not very patient.
*i seem to have been dealing with PIA pretty well lately with all of her games.
*i know misery love company and I don't think I will join them.
*i feel I am in a very good place in life today. Ask me again tomorrow, it may change.
*i dance when no one is watching me.
*i dream of the future and the past quite a bit.
*i give with my whole heart whenever I get a chance.
*i listen most of the time open-minded.
*i sing when the radio is louder than my voice haha!
*i laugh at myself mostly, laughter is the best medicine.
*i can't stand people who use other people and their feelings as a doormat.
*i write when I need to get out some feelings.
*i cry mostly in the shower.
*i sleep wherever the sandman visits me at.
*i am at work and ready to have a longgggg vacation (maternity leave possibly?)
*i see snow coming to our area real soon. Could be a snow day tomorrow?
*i need a good back rub and about a weeks worth of sleep.
*i should really go get me some lunch and feed this baby already.

I tag all of you who have not done this already!!

Friday, December 12, 2008

tagged

Okay so I seen this on someone elses blog and thought I would do it too. Your supposed to copy the list and the highlight the ones you have done. I think I managed 43 out of 99, I better start living life on the wilder side.

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disneyland/world
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang/played a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea (from the shoreline)
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables.
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie (through work)
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies (still do)
62. Gone whale watching
63. Gotten flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check (once too many times unfortunately)
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar (I work for doctors)
72. Pieced a quilt (will be soon)
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous (a detroit red wing at work)
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Made a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

Any takers???

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Status Quo

Things have been holding steady in our neck of the woods (thank God). Superdaddy is back to working for now and the PIA is well still a Pain In the A$$.

The kids came by last weekend. We were able to decorate the tree unlike last year. I took them to the dollar store and managed to spend $75.00 with only 2 of the kids. EKKK. This weekend will be my children shopping. Fun times but at least if PIA doesn't let the girls come back than they will at least have their gifts to give.

Things with Superdad's work are not looking to hot. Even with the big 3 bailout things are not looking good. He delivers for GM. His delivery plant is "shut down" usually the week of Christmas and New Years. This year, however, his deliver plant is shut down December 20 through January 25th. This means no paycheck; No unemployment; Child support still due. The baby is due January 19th so if things hold true, than he just might be home when the baby comes.

It is so hard to get used to him being gone again after being home for 2 and a half weeks in November. I can only imagine if he doesn't get out after December 20th how hard it will be when the baby comes and he has to go back to work.

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Its been a while

Because Natalie tagged all of her readers.

Link to the person who tagged you.
Post the rules on your blog.
Write 6 random things about yourself.
Tag 6-ish people at the end of your post.
Let each person know he/she has been tagged.
Let the tagger know when your entry is up.

1. I used to play the clarinet in the school band. My son and now my daughter have both played it in school. I can still pick it up and mess up a song. I was never really good at it, but I played it the best I could.

2. Up until recently, I had a 'new' used car each year I was driving. Though they were never new, I had a newer one for about a year.

3. I married my high school sweetheart the second time around. My parents came between us when we dated in high school. After being apart some time, we somehow met up again and found out we were going through the same kind of things in life (marriage failing). We have been back together over 6 years.

4. One point in my life, I wished my ex husband would die. I never guessed he would over dose and die. Every day I look at Miss J I wish I never wanted him to die. I wish he was here to teach her things and have her get to know him. He was in prison all but 2 years of her life. He was a great friend, and great guy until he got hooked on drugs. Sorry I wished you would die.

5. Up until a few years ago, I loved my job. I work in health care and we are in the business of saving lives (not all of health care is). We are a small community in our "field". A few years ago, we got an "administration change". Seems it is more about money and numbers than patients themselves. The day we were told to push numbers no matter what, I decided my job was no longer my job, it was just a paycheck. I love my patients. I love being part of the "saving lives" aspect of our department. I hate the politics and the "money aspect".

6. I am very close to completing my associates degree in college for office administration. I quit going to school after i married Miss J's dad and got pregnant with Miss J. Today I have over $10,000 in student loans and no degree to show for it. I need to get a boot up my ass and get back to school.

If you haven't done the random things about yourself lately, consider yourself tagged!

Monday, December 01, 2008

Got some cheese?

I got the wine!!


So it has been a while since i posted. I have been in sort of a funk.

I am rather sad about the Gestational Diabetes diagnosis. Heck my finger tips hurt from all the poor poking they are getting. I missed out on stuffing and pumpkin pie on Thanksgiving; but my numbers looked great. That is until this week. Like today my morning number was 99 (needs to be below 90) and my breakfast number was 123 (needs to be below 120). No one seems to understand just how sad and depressed I am about this and the fact that the holidays are here and I cannot indulge like everyone else. A simple cookie is out of reach!!!! And than to see my numbers makes all the sacrifices seem like it is all in vain. Will have to report to the dr tomorrow and see what they want to do. They said to give it a week and if the numbers are not there than insulin. Please dear Lord...no insulin.

Another thing i have been dealing with is the whole "this baby is a female". I so wanted a boy and so did superdaddy. I did my whole "secret stork" exchange and was fine buying for a little girl. Truth be told, I was disappointed in what I received as a gift. Probably due to the fact that I put so much thought into the gift I gave. There were 13 or so mammas that didn't get gifts. I had indicated that I would probably help out in cases such as these. Guess what!!!??? I am paired with a girl who is due the same day I am. She is having my little boy and I am having her little girl. Her birthday is the same as bubbas birthday. How in the world do I think going to a store to buy a gift for a little guy is going to pan out? I want the little boy stuff to be for my son not someone elses.