Thursday, September 25, 2008

Life updates

Life has been status quo for the most part. School is back into full swing with Chicky starting on Monday. Have been trying to gather our "baby" things to go through it and see what we still need. Somehow I am unable to locate our infant car seat. I wonder what the heck I did with it. Things with the baby are coming along. I wished I looked more pregnant than fat. 3 people have commented that i don't look pregnant yet. I guess that is a good thing but still. We go for the repeat ultrasound on Tuesday. I am very excited to see Thumper again.

Since the whole child services thing, PIA has not let the kids come over. In fact she has not called Superdad at all. I wonder if they gave her a time to get her living conditions straightened up. Well beds for the kids anyways. Just an odd observation.

Hope everyone else is having a good day and good week. Have a blast this weekend.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Yesterday

Yesterday was a very tough day for me. Yesterday was 7 years since my father passed away. I didn't feel too much like talking.

Today the detective called regarding Bubba. The victim's family never brought her back in for re interviewing by the prosecutor. The prosecutor gave them plenty of time. Prosecutor got fed up with jerking around with them and DISMISSED the case!! DENIED THE WARRANT!

Thank you all for your good thought and good vibes. They were appreciated more than you could ever imagine.

Wanna hit the bar? I sure do to celebrate but Thumper protests :)

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Post Secret

So I posted my number on Post Secret yesterday. I had some strangers share their secrets with me. I will share with you anonymously of course. It felt so good to let some of my secrets out believe it or not.

I love him with all of my heart but I worry about being married but still feeling like a single mom

When I signed the email "your weekend girlfriend" I said I was kidding but that's what I think I am.

I pretend to be scared that he's in the USAF but really I wish he'd marry me and move me far away.

I regret ever becoming a mother. I have 3 children and am expecting another soon.

I had an affair with a 30 year old married man when I was 16

I always wonder what the child inside of me felt when it died. It is 5 years later and I wonder what he/she would look like. I tell my mom I don't want kids. The reality is I don't want to loose one again.

He’s using her the same way he used me. I wish I had the courage to tell her what's going on and that he used the same lines on both of us plus others.

I feel greedy for having another child when there are so many others out in the world who want to have a child and cannot.

I have never had an orgasm.

I had an abortion at 16 and now can't look at my 7 yr old daughter without knowing she should have a 9 yr old sibling.

My husband scheduled an interview on the day we are supposed to have our ultrasound/sonogram appt. I am devistated. I secretly hope he does not get the job and he regrets missing our appt.

If I could I would move far away and never talk to my family again and I would make sure they could never find me.

I cheated on my husband. I'm scared to tell him because I don't regret it.

I still dream about my first love even though i'm happily married for 7 years and haven't seen him in 8 years. Than I feel guilty after each dream.

I once had an affair with a girl. I still think of her daily. My husband does not know this. He has my reality, she has my fantasy.

I don't want any more children but have seriously considered having another so I could see my OB more often! She rocks

Sometimes I think things will never get better for me.

She told me she was addicted to me, that she wants to be married. She made herself so vulnerable and as much as I want to protect her, shes going to get hurt.


These were the ones I received so far. Some are pretty deep revelations. Feel free to go to Frank's blog (Post Secret) and see some of the secrets that are revealed there. You will not be disappointed.
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=40031276&blogID=432528289

If you care to share a secret feel free to message me and I can provide my cell number. Your secret is safe with me.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Explanation

I will never say that the ex wife and I were friends or will be friends. I never did a darn thing to her. I have even given her food out of my home when she needed it. Above child support, we buy things for the girls when they need it. All she sees is that he left her and ended up with me. She claims she came first in his life and she should always come first 1998 or there abouts. Problem is this, I came into his life in 9th grade somewhere around 1990. I had a baby with him summer/fall of 1990. Problem with said baby was this...he was almost 18 I was only 16. My parents chose what happened to that baby. If it weren't for parent's interference, we probably would have been together longer. Our future was already written long before we even born.

From day one, she threatened me and tried to poison her girls against me. As her girls have gotten older, they; the older one especially; have seen through her smoke signal. She tries to tell them things that are not true and expect them to believe her instead of what they see with their own eyes.

She has always had a nicer house than I have. Not a problem by me. She has a nice newer car; I have a junker. Her kids go to a better school than mine. What is the problem here? I should have envy over her. I am content with my life. I am happy most of the time.

Misery loves company and I choose not to let her make me miserable. Just last month one of the girls was crying after hubs and I had words. She was crying because she was going to miss me. I was confused. Her mother told her that I was a home wrecker and if dad and I fought enough, we would split up and they could be together again. Somehow she has put it in the kids head that if we split up, hubs will have the house and her and the kids can stay there.

Children should not be used as pawns against one parent or the other. They should be loved and nurtured. They are not game pieces to be toyed with. She has had the children ask me about child support; tried to have friend of the court garnish my wages. Give me a break.

I love my children and my step children with my whole heart and would give my life for them. She loves her children in a different way. One that I am not a fan of. She loves them as long as there is something in it for her. She told the 9 year old that she would let her come live with us except dad wouldn't pay child support and she needs the child support for bills. What does a 9 year old need to know about child support? Precisely.

I guess to sum it up, I am living the type of life she dreams of living. The difference is this...I can support myself. I work and she doesn't. She gets to watch her children every single waking minute of every single day. I don't. I guess in a sense, she lives the life I wish I could live with my children, but then again I would be envious of others who had more in life too. The difference, I would not try to poison my children with lies and hatred in the process.

I am not angry at her per se' I am angry at her behavior. I mean someone who will be 40 next month needs to grow up and get a life!

Jealousy is ugly.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Many thanks

Prayers or good vibes did the trick. The kids get to stay. HAHA! The wench PIA called child (CPS) services on us and opened a case against us. They left a calling card on Wednesday. Unfortunately my coworker had Thursday, Friday and Monday off due to her kid having surgery. They came out this am. Investigated and left. They were going to talk to the children. Who knows if and when we will hear back from him.

I absolutely hate her more. They didn't tell us who called exactly, but things they said and accused were only her or her mother. Miss G dropped a brick on her toe on September 1. The guy asked about it. They asked about no food in the house, dirty living conditions, dirty clothes, baths. All were of course invalid. Hopefully they will go check her home out.

NEWSFLASH! The girls still have no beds at her house! What comes around goes around. Wonder if she shot herself in the foot by calling on our home. Now her home will be investigated as well (or so he told us).

I would never wish CPS on anyone. I haven't slept in 3 days. Dear Lord, I need a vacation!

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Uggg

Just cannot catch a break. This sucks monkey ass. Stop and say a prayer for us. Will talk later.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

Summer is over :(

Sure was nice to get out of the city for the holiday weekend. Next time, remind me to leave mother at home. She is going to cause me to have a stroke. I actually told her I was gonna leave her on I-75 if she didn't quit yelling at me about other drivers.

Today has been relatively quiet except for the ever so persistent mother hanging up the phone on me. My stress levels are through the roof. I actually think my blood pressure is up.

We told Miss G about the baby. She was so excited, telling everyone who would listen. Miss M didn't come camping. Apparently she was promised other things. Perhaps the second pair of gym shoes is what she was promised. Miss M got 2 brand spanking new pair of gym shoes. Miss G has Zero. Her PIA mother didn't think to get her a pair I guess.

Superdad confronted PIA about her moving yet again after we got home from camp. She tried to block my car in so Superdaddy couldn't leave. She was screaming and yelling to the point that Miss G didn't want to go anywhere with her mom. She wanting nothing to do with her and proceeded to tell Superdad that mom was acting a fool because she heard we were having another baby. Miss G got hysterical when he made her go with PIA after they went shopping to get gym shoes.

Than she demanded to know where Miss G's gym shoes were. She only asked for backpacks. The girls were scared to death they wouldn't have pencils for school. We provided them as well; and a few shirts. The wonderful mother they have been born to was less than appreciative of the book bags and such. She wanted shoes. Why did she get one 2 pairs and the other none?

How can parent's treat their children so different when they born them all? How can you possibly treat one like shit and one like a prince/princess? The reason the girls have both said is simply this: WELL MISS G LOOKS JUST LIKE DAD AND MISS M LOOKS JUST LIKE MOM. Tell me now, didn't she love Superdaddy at one time? What is wrong with her one child looking like him? Jealousy is UGLY!