A decent night to reflect

Things this weekend were hectic to say the least. He was as bummed out as we were. Hopefully he will be home early this weekend. After the kids went back to their moms, and we only had the 3 home, it was really quiet.

I had time to think and reflect. Reflect on where we have been and where we are going. A time to see how all of our struggles have made us stronger. A time to find out our true weeknesses. It is time to grow together and alone as individuals. A time for self reflection. I see plenty of myself that i need to change and part of me that has changed already.

Today is a new day...Lets get to where are want to be today.

Until next time....ADIOS!!

Trick or treating alone

Well knowing he wasn't going to be home on Tuesday, we had huge plans with Halloween parties and such today. Instead of sitting around mopeing, I took the kids with my aunt. They have a huge stash of candy and it isn't even Halloween yet. This was supposed to be his Halloween day with the kids. I know he is as disappointed as I am that he missed it. Too bad Halloween wasn't just one more week away then he would have been home. Well, maybe next year. Til next time...ADIOS!!

The worst weekend yet....

Looks bad for him coming home. Looks like he is stuck in Pennsylvania. The asshole who is filling in today for his regular dispatcher will not let him drive home empty. He is insisting he needs a load to come home. I just want him home. The kids just want him home.

I am so terribly disappointed :(

Word cannot describe...

Tonight just sucks

I guess the hard part is missing him. He is so frustrated and so am I. I hate the fact that he is not home. Hopefully he will be home tomorrow. He got laid over in Jersey. He should have been on his way home from Pennsylvania not on his way to Jersey. I guess I was a little whiney about it and he got angry.

We miss him. He should feel good to be loved. His other kids have been here at night the last 3 days. They are not used to coming over when he isn't here. Quite frankly, it has been as rough on me as it has been on them and their mother. I guess I need to quit being so selfish and be grateful he has a job. I just never imagined it would be this hard.

Until next time...Being a truckers' wife sucks sometimes :(

So much for coming home on Friday's

Today sucks! Aside from having the kids this weekend and Halloween stuff going on, he was supposed to be home sometime tonight. I told the kids he would be there tonight. Well Jersey is just too far away...Almost a whole day away and he just got there :(

Looks like he will miss the school Halloween dance tonight and possibly the church party tomorrow. I would take coming home at 3am is better than not coming home at all tonight. This really sucks!!

Single parenting sucks!

Another long night with cranky kids. Last night had to be the worst night ever for the kids. None of them wanted to go to bed, or get a shower, or eat dinner, or be at our house. I have to say that last night was tough. I know that the kids were very tired and cranky, but when they flat out tell you I don't want to be with you I want my daddy/mom is another. I know this is a change of routine for them and it SUCKS!!

Anyways, he is supposed to be home tomorrow sometime. Hopefully it will not be too late when he gets home that way he can see the kids and spend time with them. First he goes East, then comes back West, then goes back East Ugggg.

Busy with Halloween stuff this week as well. Have a Girl Scout party tonight, school party tomorrow, church party Saturday. The kids will be loaded with sugar soon enough.

Until next time.....

All in a day's work...

Last night was certainly exhausting. Bubba had a football game. We drove around and never found the field. Apparently, they switched the field at the last minute and didn't tell the parents. How can we support them if we cannot find them?

Seems everyone wanted a shower last night at the same time. Seems as though we need a bigger hot water tank. 5 kids wanting/needing showers/baths makes for no hot water. Needless to say, the last one in gets a cold shower...That would be me....

Adios for today!

A Wife's Worries

Friday was pretty eventful. It was a long wait and come to find out, the breaks were bad so they pulled him in to change the breaks....Also needed new tires. Only one had a huge chunks of rubber missing. And I'm not supposed to worry while he is in the mountains, hauling 42,000 pounds of stuff with bad breaks and tires through the mountains. Ugh, remind me to ask him if his job offers life insurance.

Other than the worries of not making it home Friday, we had a wonderfully uneventful weekend with lots of together time. We did have all the kids for part of the day and it certainly was nice to visit.

On another note...it amazes me that Virginia needs so much from here. He is off to Virginia again. Different place in Virginia, but never-the-less Virginia. That is how the week started last week as well. We will see where this week's journey will take my lonely truck driver...

Until tomorrow or my next breakdown....Adios!!

And the wait begins...

I can hardly contain myself. I feel like a kid on Christmas Eve. He is coming home!!! He had me worried earlier. We weren't sure if he was going to be able to make it home tonight due to some service issues with the truck. I ceratinly was worried. Tomorrow is Sweetest Day. Ya know another Hallmark holiday. A day for us to be together and enjoy each other. Regardless, he will be home soon!! Till Monday Adios!!!

Another lonesome night

Well, after a long week, he will be home tomorrow. Tomorrow cannot come soon enough!! We have so many things to do this weekend. Hopefully we will have some alone time :)

Missing each other tonight...

Ahhhh...a super muddy football game in the rain. Not an ideal night to speak of. Bubba's team got creamed 16 to ZIP. As luck would turn out, it rained the whole game. We are all chilled to the bone. Nice warm showers for all of us tonight...

Kind of sucks that on such a cool night he is 700 some miles away...sleeping in a truck. I can hardly wait for this weekend to come. We will have some time together then. Hopefully all weekend...Until tomorrow; a hot shower calls my name!

Off to warmer weather...

Well today he is off to warmer climate a long ways away in West Virginia. Sure do wish I could go with him. It has been really cold here and quite frankly it sucks. Cold nights are coming sooner and sooner every year.

Sometimes in my fantasy world, we would go somewhere spectacular where it was nice and warm.

Sometime, hopefully in the future. There is always tomorrow...

Here's to another week.....

This weekend was good. Went to a friends house and had a decent weekend. Could not get home fast enough yesterday though...couldn't wait to see him. When we finally got home, we had to go get Halloween costumes for the kids. FUN...FUN...

We got to go see his truck last night before it was too dark. Not as bad as I thought, not as cozy as home...

Slept like a baby last night. God do I miss him already.......

Here's to another week........

He's Coming Home!!!

Today is a happy day. Though it is 8:30 at night;Though he will be pulling in and leaving; He is coming home. We are heading to a friends house and he is going camping. Adios' until Sunday when I become a lonely again :( Still hoping it will get easier...

Still going strong

Well he is still on the East Coast. Going from Maryland to New Jersey. Today he is going from New Jersey to Ohio. He may not make it all the way there today.

Who knows.

All I know is that I have to get ready for Girl Scouts and get him packed for Boy Scouts. The troop is going camping this weekend. We are having our first meeting and should have a blast with the new kids.

After the meeting, we are going to my friends house to visit for the weekend. Should be fun. 6 kids running around a farm. HAHA!!!

Still lonely. Hope it will get easier soon enough. HHHUUMMMPPPPPHHHH!!!!!

Feeling sorry for myself again....

Well, he is off to Maryland this evening and I am off to bed. Definitely looking forward to this weekend. Though he will be camping with scouts, I will get to see him. Though he will be home, again, we will be apart. Ugggg.....Sure hope it gets easier.

Feeling sorry for myself again....

And He's Rolling

He made it safely to Alabama. Yesterday to Tennessee and finally finished his day in Ohio. Today he will finish his drive from yesterday in Pennsylvania. We will see where he goes this afternoon.

Bubba had a football game yesterday. They played hard; they lost 30 to 24. Kind of sucks.

Certainly is a different world being a single parent again and being married on the weekend. I know people do it all the time; I was one of them in the past. Feels funny to be one again.

Nothing Like being single again :(

Yesterday was another fabulous day at church with the kids. I talked to him very briefly last night on our way home from church. He still wasn't all the way there yet. He will call me back when he gets there. He did call, while I was in the shower, he made it. He cannot locate the phone charger; his battery is going dead. Perhaps he will buy a new one. Perhaps it will be a really quiet lonely week. We will see what the rest of the week will hold.

D....Day!!!

Today is D...Day. Tomorrow was supposed to be D. Day. Today they called and told him "Your off to Nashville" This weekend was supposed to be "Our Time" instead it was his "other wife's" time. Time to go off roading. Nashville bound turned into Decatur bound. Our time goes right out the window :( Hope it isn't this hard all the time. Hummmppphhhh