Burnout!

It has been a long week. Things are status quo around here.

I have been asking myself what the hell did I get myself into? More times this last week than I have I think in my lifetime.

PIA has been letting the kids come over for church during the week. This is great for the kids have been wanting to go to church for the Monday kids program for the last 5 years. Plus midweek services and such. Problem is...I have child burn out. I love the kids dearly with all my heart, I am just burned out.

My girl scout troop is going camping this weekend coming up. I have so much to do to prepare for camp myself and yet I have the kids under foot and I have to pack them for camp too. It is "our" activity so we have to provide the "supplies". Thumper will be joining us for camp as well.

The Circus is coming to town. I don't mean my children will be in town. The Shr.iners have donated 5,000 tickets to this Thursday's circus. I along with hundreds of other Detroiter's braved the cold wind to get 4 free tickets per family. See the logistics. Only 4 tickets. I had to drag my mom's butt out of bed to stand in line with me. We almost got tickets in different areas. Luckily I had the brains to ask if it was seat specific which it was and drag mom's butt to my window to get consecutive seats. Even had to drag Eddie (my babysitter/friend's husband) to my window so we could all sit together.

Bottom line, this was our weekend. Had the kids last week, Friday (scouts), Saturday overnight to Sunday (Miss G came), Monday (church), Wednesday (church), Friday (scouts), Saturday, Sunday, Monday (church), Wednesday (church), Thursday (circus), Friday (scout camp), Saturday (scout camp), Sunday (scout camp), Monday (church play), Thursday (church), Friday (church) in the last 2 weeks. I think she should be paying me child support. Ha Ha!

The issues are still there at home. I think he is ready to bolt. This economy sucks, we are sinking and both tired of not having any money for anything. We still have not celebrated Chicky's birthday, let alone Miss J's or Miss G's birthday. We barely have gas money to get to work this week. I know it is ever where and I apologize for making it my "pity potty". It just sucks.

Parenting teenagers suck....Parenting pre-teen's sucks even more. Reality vs Fantasy. The lies the children come up with. The rooms that never see clean floors. The dressers that remain empty even after laundry has been done. Oye.

Just another day in Paradise.

D Day

Today is my dreaded return to work date. Of course, last night Thumper decided to pull an almost all nighter. She should sleep well for the sitter today. Haven't been able to update at home due to no funds to pay the Internet bill. Hell no funds to pay many bills.

Superdaddy got a local job that is a huge pay cut, but hell he can be home nightly. He isn't driving a 53 footer though. He is driving a box refrigerator truck. I'm not quite sure how I feel about him being home daily though. Strange. Probably because I was home with him for 6 weeks every day. He was driving me batty!!!

PIA did get married. Her fiance had a "major heart attach" the eve of the wedding. Sometime around 3:00 am Saturday morning he collapsed in the hall way and had to go to ER. According to the story, he was on life support and walked out Sunday morning. I saw the wedding album and have to say, the "life support" was an oxygen mask. Next she tells, he pulled his trach out so he could check out. My dad had a trach and he definately does not have one of those. Any which way, she is sweet as sugar and honey to the kids and Superdaddy. She even let them come to midweek service at church last week for Ash Wednesday.

How bout this, she even invited Miss J to Miss G's birthday party to celebrate together. They are only 3 days and a year apart. She wants the kids to all come. Ha!

Maybe just maybe she will "cool her heels" for a little bit.

Got lots of catching up to do.

Here is a pic from "party girl Thumper" last night.

Been a while

Life has been cruising along. We had the step kids from Friday after school until Christmas eve then again Christmas day until New years day. Talk about mad house. sheesh.

Court was hysterical from what I gathered. She tried to get a bunch of stuff to happen that the court told her would not happen. They basically told her to she needed to live her life and not worry about his life and vice versa. Fine by me. She (PIA) suggested her "fiance", Superdaddy, herself and I go to counseling for the girls sake. She is the one who caused so much grief in my life. I have been nothing but cordial to her face. Basically she even told the court lady that us having another kid was taking her child support away from her children. This was court date number 4 since September.

Miss M freaked out when she saw I had bottles in the kitchen cabinet. I was like...umm we are having a baby soon you know. She said yes I did know, but mom said around Easter. Yeah.

We finally found some clothes for Thumper. The crib is still not up, the gun cabinet is still in the spot for the crib, the bottles are washed ready to go, we have diapers/wipes, now if I could just get my shit together and get our bag packed.

I think Superdaddy is in denial. Baby is due January 19th. I have been having contractions for last 2 months. Guess what he decided...since he is off of work from December 22 to February 1 or there abouts, he is going up north to go snowmobiling. Thursday he is leaving after dropping Chicky off at school. He will be home Sunday or there abouts. Possibly going up the following weekend as well. Un-freaking-believable. Part of me hopes to go into labor and he misses it. Would serve his ass right.

I thought him being home things would be better with us. Things are not terrible, but not better. I guess I have higher expectations than I thought. I mean is it too much to ask that he comes to bed by say 11pm? That we have couple time after the kids go to bed? Guess the time is better spent holding down the computer chair (heaven knows that counterstrike game cannot play itself).

Hoping that nesting kicks in soon. With having the kids all of break the house barely got straightened up let alone cleaned. Good thing we got a borrowed bassinet so the kid will not be sleeping in the dresser drawer as previously thought.

Anyone got a self loading washer/dryer that they can borrow me? How about self scrubbing dishes? Seems mom the maid is ready to fall apart any day now.

Hope everyone had a great holiday and that everyone starts the new year off right.

Life updates

Talk about a terrible week. Last week was plain awful in terms of well everything.

Monday, my mom's car broke down. Tuesday the temp showed up late for work and we got nasty phone calls from our boss about no one answering the phone. Wednesday my car broke down on the way to work...actually at the stop sign at work and had to be pushed into the lot. Security would not help push it the good for nothings. Thursday I hitched a ride and my aunt helped get the car fixed to get it home. Thursday night, the car was less than 1/2 mile from my house and the damn thing stalled and would not start again. Never mind during the week, my furnace has been acting up on and off. The stupid heat would turn off out of the blue. Friday we got walloped with some 12 inches of snow.

The car incident was terrible; especially seeing how Superdaddy blamed the operator (me) for reckless driving and such. Turned out the damn clamp that was fixed 2 months ago broke on the fuel line. Had nothing to do with reckless driving.

Get this...Saturday the furnace went out again. Turns out the "trap door" was not pushing the safety switch igniter down enough. He finally figured it out. I suggested taping it down until he could figure out how to replace the switch. Oh no!! Terrible idea...tape will ignite. 20 minutes later...do I know where duct tape is? Asshole. Oh yeah on the other foot, "I" meaning me have not been closing the trap door properly or else we wouldn't have this problem. When I fix the damn thing it works for 2-3 days and than goes out. When he fixes it, it works maybe for 2 hours.

Husband for sale!! Any takers?!?!?!?

Guess we have the step kids from 12/19 through 12/24 am and then 12/25 through 1/1. We were happily informed mom is getting married. Her boyfriend is staying with them now. She just moved into this home. She wants a winter wedding, he wants a spring wedding. Seems to me someone is in a hurry to get married to have someone take care of her. I just hope this one is enough to make her happy and leave us the hell alone. She needs to get a life of her own and leave mine alone!!

Happy holidays to you and your family. Be safe everyone and enjoy!!

revelation!

According to myspace.....
PIA got a new home Im so happy moving is all done life for me is going ok !!!

This is our weekend. Guess who is not here??? Looks like it is back to playing games again. And she will pay the piper one day soon enough.

To think she accused us of taking away from her girls when we decided to have another baby. She is taking away from her own kids by playing her games. We were gonna go xmas shopping with the kids this weekend to have them buy for everyone on their lists. HAHA!!

paperwork

The paperwork arrived in mail. She is requesting "supervised visitation at a police station" outside our home due to her children coming home with headlice. Oh yeah and ring worm.

Back up to last week. The kids came to my home with lice!! I treated them. I picked their hair. She sent them to school. I waited and called the school and they were there. I don't know if the school sent them home or not.

Ring worm is something new.

Somewhere on the papers it says "he switches 'court ordered visitation' without court permission. She sends them when she wants to.

To think, this is his weekend. We will see if she sends them or not.

Life

Like sands through the hour glass...these are the days!

PIA is dragging him back to court. To modify custody.

How the hell is he supposed to pay child support if she keeps making it so he can't work? Last week he was off all week. His truck was in the shop. He is hunting. Coming home today or tomorrow. He should leave out Wednesday if his truck is fixed; and come home Friday some time. He will obviously not leave out Monday morning at 5am to work because he has to go to court with her at 1:30 pm. Than he would leave again Wednesday...that won't happen due to the holiday.

Basic breakdown...
Whole Check Friday 11/21
No check (truck in shop) 11/28
1/2 check 12/5
No check (court and holiday) 12/12

Oh yeah and she still needs child support. And we don't get gifts from church and toys 4 tots like she does. Looks like our tree will be pretty baron this year.

What the heck is she up to?

Pet Lice

The ex sent the step kids over with pet lice in their hair again. I am so sick and tired of this shit. Now, a 30 week pregnant woman (me) is doing lice treatments with pestacides and spending an un-godly amount of time picking shit out of their hairs. Selfish Bitch.

Recap!

Bubba completed his eagle scout project. Now has to deliver and fill out rest of paperwork and get it signed off. Very quiet weekend. No step kids. Imagine that. She will not let the courts dictate when he can see the kids. She will let him see her kids when she feels like letting him see the kids. Her birthday is Thursday. My guess is she will drop them off Friday so she can go to the bar for the weekend to spend her hard earned child support money.

I think this will be a fine weekend to make ourselves unavailable seeing how every other weekend from last weekend forward will make him free for opening gun season for hunting.

Dear ex-father in law passed away Monday. Not that i am part of the family or anything anymore, but my ex's best friend called me to let me know on Friday so I could take the kids and go pay our respects. DA's sister spent exactly 2 hours with Miss J out of the days she was here. Arriving Friday evening...staying until Monday morning. Lots of quality time. Would think the only thing she had left of her brother would mean more to her than 2 hours. O'well her loss.

Hope every ones weekend was a good one. Had to train the new girl at work this week. She will replace me when I take my baby leave. Too bad my job includes use of a computer and well, she doesn't have one yet or a phone. What is a secretary to do? Put the new girl to work cleaning out the supply closet I tell ya. Fun Fun!

ugg

PIA: Im almost there to a better life thank god...

This was posted as her header on her myspace. Glad she is almost to a better life. Wish she would leave my life alone.

Tangent

After doing some online research, it appears her child support will more than double since he is working a better job and she is not working at all. There is some retarted formula that they use and it goes something like this....


it takes said amount of money to raise a child and if parent A (custody parent) makes said amount of money, and parent B (Superdaddy) makes said amount of money, take this equation:

Raising money = (Parent B - Parent A) take difference subtract 77.9% (which is allowed because we have other children).

I don't get it, however the schedule they have on line shows (custody parent income) across the top and (non-custody parent income) along the side. Basically you find the income for each and equal it out (like multiplication table) and her child support will go from more than $600 a month to closer to $1250 a month because when the first order was made she was working and now she isn't.

I mean give me a break. It took 2 of them to make a baby, shouldn't it take 2 of them to financially support them children? Why shouldn't he have gotten a better job to better himself?

This economy sticks everywhere. They are punishing the parents who are trying to live above poverty level. What is wrong with this picture? She chooses to live the way she lives. She is fully capable of working and just doesn't. Her "job" is a Stay at home mother. They don't get paid much and quite frankly, I find it hard to believe love alone can make a house payment and pay the bills.

Ta Da...Outcome

Ya know, the beginning of the year, Superdaddy was 3900.00 in arrearages give or take some. Currently, he is 738.78 in arrearages. You do the math. She dragged him back to court. We don't have money coming out our noses or the other end if you know what i mean. Never mind she has not let the children come over since Labor day and that was only one child that came. She showed up in court today with her older two children. Shows class huh? She thinks her arrearages will be able to get them into a "purchasing a home" house. What the hell happened to the $3200 from previous payments?

Whatever. We have to come up with October payment and an additional $500 within 30 days or he goes to jail. Never mind it cost him half a paycheck to go to court today That right there could have been her $500.

Sonofa! I wouldnt be so darn bitter about it if she actually put forth an effort to raise them children. She has no job. Welfare and childsupport raise them children. I work so she can sit on her behind and take Superdaddy to court.

PIA

She is dragging him back to court. YEAH! Just more missed time from work. Just how in the hell do they think he can pay child support if he isn't at work? He will have to miss a half a week of work for one losey day of court.

Explanation

I will never say that the ex wife and I were friends or will be friends. I never did a darn thing to her. I have even given her food out of my home when she needed it. Above child support, we buy things for the girls when they need it. All she sees is that he left her and ended up with me. She claims she came first in his life and she should always come first 1998 or there abouts. Problem is this, I came into his life in 9th grade somewhere around 1990. I had a baby with him summer/fall of 1990. Problem with said baby was this...he was almost 18 I was only 16. My parents chose what happened to that baby. If it weren't for parent's interference, we probably would have been together longer. Our future was already written long before we even born.

From day one, she threatened me and tried to poison her girls against me. As her girls have gotten older, they; the older one especially; have seen through her smoke signal. She tries to tell them things that are not true and expect them to believe her instead of what they see with their own eyes.

She has always had a nicer house than I have. Not a problem by me. She has a nice newer car; I have a junker. Her kids go to a better school than mine. What is the problem here? I should have envy over her. I am content with my life. I am happy most of the time.

Misery loves company and I choose not to let her make me miserable. Just last month one of the girls was crying after hubs and I had words. She was crying because she was going to miss me. I was confused. Her mother told her that I was a home wrecker and if dad and I fought enough, we would split up and they could be together again. Somehow she has put it in the kids head that if we split up, hubs will have the house and her and the kids can stay there.

Children should not be used as pawns against one parent or the other. They should be loved and nurtured. They are not game pieces to be toyed with. She has had the children ask me about child support; tried to have friend of the court garnish my wages. Give me a break.

I love my children and my step children with my whole heart and would give my life for them. She loves her children in a different way. One that I am not a fan of. She loves them as long as there is something in it for her. She told the 9 year old that she would let her come live with us except dad wouldn't pay child support and she needs the child support for bills. What does a 9 year old need to know about child support? Precisely.

I guess to sum it up, I am living the type of life she dreams of living. The difference is this...I can support myself. I work and she doesn't. She gets to watch her children every single waking minute of every single day. I don't. I guess in a sense, she lives the life I wish I could live with my children, but then again I would be envious of others who had more in life too. The difference, I would not try to poison my children with lies and hatred in the process.

I am not angry at her per se' I am angry at her behavior. I mean someone who will be 40 next month needs to grow up and get a life!

Jealousy is ugly.

Many thanks

Prayers or good vibes did the trick. The kids get to stay. HAHA! The wench PIA called child (CPS) services on us and opened a case against us. They left a calling card on Wednesday. Unfortunately my coworker had Thursday, Friday and Monday off due to her kid having surgery. They came out this am. Investigated and left. They were going to talk to the children. Who knows if and when we will hear back from him.

I absolutely hate her more. They didn't tell us who called exactly, but things they said and accused were only her or her mother. Miss G dropped a brick on her toe on September 1. The guy asked about it. They asked about no food in the house, dirty living conditions, dirty clothes, baths. All were of course invalid. Hopefully they will go check her home out.

NEWSFLASH! The girls still have no beds at her house! What comes around goes around. Wonder if she shot herself in the foot by calling on our home. Now her home will be investigated as well (or so he told us).

I would never wish CPS on anyone. I haven't slept in 3 days. Dear Lord, I need a vacation!

Summer is over :(

Sure was nice to get out of the city for the holiday weekend. Next time, remind me to leave mother at home. She is going to cause me to have a stroke. I actually told her I was gonna leave her on I-75 if she didn't quit yelling at me about other drivers.

Today has been relatively quiet except for the ever so persistent mother hanging up the phone on me. My stress levels are through the roof. I actually think my blood pressure is up.

We told Miss G about the baby. She was so excited, telling everyone who would listen. Miss M didn't come camping. Apparently she was promised other things. Perhaps the second pair of gym shoes is what she was promised. Miss M got 2 brand spanking new pair of gym shoes. Miss G has Zero. Her PIA mother didn't think to get her a pair I guess.

Superdad confronted PIA about her moving yet again after we got home from camp. She tried to block my car in so Superdaddy couldn't leave. She was screaming and yelling to the point that Miss G didn't want to go anywhere with her mom. She wanting nothing to do with her and proceeded to tell Superdad that mom was acting a fool because she heard we were having another baby. Miss G got hysterical when he made her go with PIA after they went shopping to get gym shoes.

Than she demanded to know where Miss G's gym shoes were. She only asked for backpacks. The girls were scared to death they wouldn't have pencils for school. We provided them as well; and a few shirts. The wonderful mother they have been born to was less than appreciative of the book bags and such. She wanted shoes. Why did she get one 2 pairs and the other none?

How can parent's treat their children so different when they born them all? How can you possibly treat one like shit and one like a prince/princess? The reason the girls have both said is simply this: WELL MISS G LOOKS JUST LIKE DAD AND MISS M LOOKS JUST LIKE MOM. Tell me now, didn't she love Superdaddy at one time? What is wrong with her one child looking like him? Jealousy is UGLY!

Life

We had a great time camping. The girls were awesome. Bubba well he was himself. Didn't see much of him actually. The balloons were a no show so that was a wee bit disappointing. It pored Saturday on us. Sunday was time to leave to go to a family reunion. While in the process of dismantling camp, a tent blew away. Guess who went chasing it and ended up "slip n slimming"? You guessed it was me. Fell square on my rear end in a big puddle of slimy mud. My only pair of pants and sweatshirt was full of mud. All in all, I knew I was doomed to fall so I made sure the fall happened on my extra cushion. We plan on telling the girls about Thumper Labor Day weekend that way PIA will still let them go camping.

Seems the girls have not been home in a while. I guess her mother is sick so they are staying there. The vacation that she supposedly took the girls on was a lie. They never went to the bridge for a week, nor did they go to Frankenmuth with papa on Superdaddy's birthday. They went to a carnival. Papa was driving, mom in front seat, and Nana, Sister A, Miss G, and Miss M were smashed in Nana's back seat. There was not enough belts for them to be buckled, so they didn't. Where are the cops when you need them. She still won't put Miss M in a booster seat as required by law.

Her baby seems to be holding his own today. He is one strong little guy that is for sure.

Quiet weekend?

For someone who doesn't have any money and is always on the rampage about money and back support, someone is going on vacation during Superdaddy's weekend. Un-freaking believable. Lets hope when they do come back over, they don't have head pets again. Supposedly, they got the cooties from my children. The girls however, told a story of how their big brother and sister had it and Miss S as well. Well we haven't seen Miss S since March and before that was almost 2 years.

Superdaddy will hopefully be home this weekend and we can get stuff done. His work truck needs to go to the shop again for the air again. Hopefully they will fix it so his poor hot sweaty self will chill out. His dispatch is messing around with his load ending times this week. They have been set pretty much to the same schedule all along and this week he might run out of drive time to make it back home due to them switching it after he is rolling.

Ex-wife for sale!!! Any takers? C'mon ya know you want one. Help a friend out!

Aggravation

Myspace status stalking has proven yet again she is a dil.

PIA is looking for houses this week

Do you know how annoyed I am by the whole "MOVING YET AGAIN" I am?? The girls deserve so much better. We cannot get custody because Superdaddy is on the road and I would be raising them. Our state will not remove from "natural parent" and place in care of step parent unless it is a case of abuse. Plus the bull shit with bubba we cannot afford a second attorney to fight it. Hell in almost 6 years, we have lived in 2 places; she has lived in 5 places and is looking to move again. We are actually looking to move about 3 hours north. I wonder how that will go over if it comes to it. Our school system sucks. We need to go somewhere. Not sure moving to "the sticks" is the answer, but as far away from my in laws as we can move the better.

Give me a break PLEASE!

Things have not let up.

Bubba is away at camp for this week.

Superdaddy called me and talked to me this weekend just not so much when he came home Sunday.

Miss J is feeling better from her surgery however the next few days is when the scabs come off and it gets worse. Pathology came back abnormal for her.

My brother in AZ called me to find out if I had heard from brother in our state. He apparently is homeless.

My mom may be having serious health issues something from the past may have come back like 5 years ago or so without a fucking doctor telling her. Something very bad. She is going for additional tests coming up. I am the only person to know besides her; and well now you guys.

PIA put on her myspace "is looking at houses this weekend!" What does that mean? The whore is looking to move yet again. Yet the girls have lived in the house they have now since right around xmas time and guess what?? THEY STILL HAVE NO BEDS TO SLEEP IN!!

They say God will not give you more than you can handle, but I think I am seriously at my breaking point. I cannot handle much more.